religion. until last year jesus was someone i looked to. god was something i knew was real. religion, church and faith are fundamental building blocks that an inseparable amount of my first 20 years of memories are twisted around. it’s shaky ground when you go from 'yes, absolutely' to 'i don't want to say no'. it’s all together life changing to say it for the first time out loud- god is not real and religion is bullshit. i still haven’t ‘come out’ in to my family.